I Was So Ashamed and Embarrassed

Wow, You Related! Read Some of Your Confessions, Then Share Your Tale, Too

Wow, you so related to my tale of shame, embarrassment and self disgust when processed carbs had me under their control.

You knew exactly what I meant when I said that those toxic carbs (movie popcorn, corn snacks and other chips) cast a spell on me.

You, too, have felt Crazy Cravings™, which have led you, too, to do so much Heartbreak Bingeing™ that you gained a lot of weight quickly.

A little history is in order. Recently, I confessed to the thousands of people on my mailing list, which you, too, can join that back in late 2012 to mid-2013 after the death of my Mom and the grueling last year with her, during which my cancer-ridden mother inadvertently angrily abused, belittled and betrayed me, I mindlessly rushed to nutrient-poor quickie carbs. Months later, I’d gained 21 pounds.

At last, four-plus years later, I have the courage to easily confess to my extended Carb Relapse without shedding a tear, getting choked up or feeling mortified. I’m now vulnerably but confidently confessing that for some six months after Mom left this earth that I mindlessly, powerlessly shoveled processed carbs into my mouth with an irrational fury and velocity and completely blew my diet.

After coming back from an awesome Tony Robbins mastermind, I felt moved to write to the confessed to my list.

Read some comments I received from people who felt fed up with having sugar or carb relapses. I’m only using first names to protect the people, who’ve slipped with sugar or carbs.

One email was more poignant than the next. Linda wrote:

Hello Connie,

Thank you for being truthful and honest with your readers. 

I have been on a detox diet, lost a bunch of weight and am now trying to figure out my new eating.

Unfortunately, I am a sucker for free food. 

Yesterday I was at a wine tasting fundraiser and overate because there was food that I hadn’t had in a long time and “wouldn’t be able to eat again.” Tonight I went to a networking event and the same thing happened. 

You would think I lived in a 3rd world country with no access to good food. (Note from Connie: My emphasis.)

FOMO, feeling deprived, feeling like I deserved it……., all feelings that I didn’t know how to handle.

I’m terribly afraid that my hard work will be undone. This all or nothing thinking has got to go!

Would love to hear how you got back on track. Thank you!

Cindy was so upset that she shared:

15 lbs. in two years!  So hard to take off but so easy to put back on!  Don’t feel comfortable in my clothes.

Carla also wanted to Bounce Back after Relapse™.

I too have relapse[d] in my sugar, carbs, and nasty processed foods.  I too need a clean rebound.  I look forward to learn more from you and your staff.

I also heard from a woman in Paris, France, whose subject heading was “Out of control.”

I’VE been binge eating for about 5 or more days…chocolate, popcorn, bread and butter…anything sweet that I can get my hands on.

I feel guilty, weak, fat, ugly, unworthy… I’m just out of control and can’t get it back… I feel desperate and don’t know what to do ..I want to stop but I just can’t.

And Pat also wrote, calling herself a Rebounder and Relapser.

Hi Connie,

Gosh your story sounds a lot like mine.  How have I gotten so far off course?

And of course it shows in my blood work and such as well.

I just feel fat, old and ugly.

Thanks for your email.  It is good to know that I am not alone.

Sincerely, Pat

And I heard from Lisa, a fellow coach.

Hi Connie,

You’re an inspiration. I was moved by your email!

XOX,

Lisa

Here’s the initial email I wrote to my list.

Hi L,

I was so ashamed,
embarrassed and angry
at myself.

To a large degree, my eating
had gotten out of control.

Carbage (carb garbage,
as I call those processed
chips, crackers and popcorn)
kept calling out to me.

Without knowing how it
happened, I kept bingeing
and bingeing.

Within a few months, 21
pounds quickly piled on.

It’s time for me to come clean
with you.

You see, although I’m happily
celebrating 20 Years off Sugar
this year, I have not eaten
cleanly this whole time.

In late 2012 to mid-2013,
after the death of my mother,
I had a massive Carb Relapse.

For months, I kept doing
what I now call Heartbreak
Bingeing, which is far more
intense than garden-variety
emotional eating.

For months, following My
Bittersweet Last Year with
Mom — a grueling time
during which my dying
mother often angrily
abused, belittled and
denigrated me — I caved into
dangerous, processed carbs
(popcorn, onion rings,
corn nuggets, etc.)

Worse still, for months,
I descended into depression,
despair, and even self-pity.

And I was really angry at
myself!

Oh did I feel huge shame,
too!

How could I, the Sweet Sugar
Freedom Coach and author of
the bestselling books, Sugar
Shock and Beyond Sugar
Shock, have let myself
sink so low?

Sure, I wasn’t eating sugar, but
who was I fooling?

Anyhow, in this my 20 Years
off Sugar Celebration, I want to
be transparent with you.

I want you to know that I have
NOT been perfect that
entire time.

But I did bounce back, and
now I’m happy to report
that I’ve eaten cleanly
for more than four years.

Now, because of my
tough time years ago,
I’m here to bring you hope.

And I’m here to help you,
too, Rebound after
Relapse™, which is,
coincidentally the working
title for my next book.

So I’m writing this week’s
Motivating Monday
Message to encourage
you and to let you know
that you can get back
on track when you’ve
blown your diet.

Have you blown your diet
recently?

Has your new year’s
resolution bit the dust?

Are you furious at yourself
for being so “weak”?

Stay tuned, I’m planning
exciting things to help you,
too, Rebound after
Relapse™.

Warmly,

Connie Bennett
The Rebound-After-Relapse
Ninja Coach™

P.S. Have you, too, either recently
or long-ago blown your diet?
Let me know.  If you’re
among the first to reply this
week, I’ll spend 45 minutes with you
via phone or Zoom to help you
get back on track and shed the
weight you yearn to lose
for good. To get your
Sweet Freedom Strategy
Session, Just reply to xxx or
xxx.
Because of spam trollers, I’ve
taken out my assistant’s and my
email address, but feel free to
reply here.

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Connie Bennett is the bestselling author of Sugar Shock (Berkley Books) and Beyond Sugar Shock (Hay House), one or both of which have been praised by Dr. Mehmet Oz, Dr. Christiane Northrup, Dr. Daniel Amen, Dr. Mark Hyman and many others. Connie is now completing her next book, Crush Your Cravings On the Go™ and the companion Crush Your Cravings System, both of which will help people easily, quickly let their cravings go. Her interest in the subject was triggered in late 2012, when she walloped by Crazy Carb Cravings after helplessly standing by her abusive, dying mother .

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